For The Love of.....

Sheesh.....what the "h" is my deal!! I am jealous about a situation that I can neither control nor change at this point in my life. Of course, if I could change the situation, I would do so to my benefit. I really need to just "get over it" and deal! Easier said then done!! Who knows how this situation will eventually turn out, but for the moment I'm just jealous! That's all I can say!! Might be nice if I could talk to someone about this that might actually care, but I will just get the usual response: "don't worry about it," "slow down," maybe something will happen down the road". Yeah, that's always my personal "favorite! I want something and want it now.....wish I knew how to get it!!

Must have sleep

For some reason I have a lot to say the last couple weeks. Not sure "why", but it's felt kinda good to get back to doing some writing. Even if it's about "nothing"! I used to write all the time, but just hadn't much til now. My dad used to "make me" write when I was "bored" and had "nothing" to do. HHHMMM.......
I finally got to sleep in today. I really needed to do so after this week of getting up early and going to bed WAY to late! Not that I'm doing "anything" of importance, just been getting to bed late. Preston did have his "first" game this week. A scrimmage anyway! Fun watching him being involved with that. I think we both really needed some extra sleep this morning, so it was nice to be able to take advantage of it.
I got my first digital camera the other day. I figured you could just open the package and start taking pics. Oh no! You MUST read the directions first....lol! Not as easy as I thought. I'm going to try and get some pics up on my myspace page for people to see. Leave a comment here or there if you check it out. Have one now, but it's not of me. THANK GOD! Anyway, I think having a digital cam is going to be more fun then I thought. I haven't had a camera of any type for such a long time!! It will be nice to have with football games starting up, plus I just needed one to have on hand so that I can have my pics of Preston. In the process of getting the camera I saw handsome "walmart guy" who used to be handsome "alco guy"....lol! Just a guy I'm kinda friends with who I think is just very handsome. Known him for several years and a lot of fun to talk to! A good friend if anything.

Lots of Blah Blah Blah

Preschool started on Monday and it has been nothing but a good time! We do have a couple little "high demand" kiddos, but nothing a little "grumpy bear chair" can't fix. Preschool really has been a lot of fun this week. Can't believe tomorrow is the end of the first week. I've done my best to follow directions, color nice, and get along with my new friends. Oh wait! Maybe I'm the "high demand" kiddo....lol.
Happy Birthday to my friend Dawn! Can't believe it's her big day again. Tried getting ahold of her this evening, but she's probably living it up! Hopefully, I will get to chat with her. In any event HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my beautiful friend Dawn!!
Just got a new Myspace page. If you feel the urge, check it out. Haven't done anything cool to it, mostly cause I don't know how. I'm so not a techie. I did put another blog on there though, and will try to keep this one and the one on Myspace from saying the same things. I've really been in the mood to write lately, so it might not be that hard.

Official First Day of Preschool

So, right now my life kinda sucks! Well, not totally, but enough that I'm on a rant for the first part of this. With the most recent events of my son, I'm having trouble "letting it go". He's still grounded and by golly will probably be that way for some time! I am having a hard time just letting things fall as they may. In the process I'm severly stressing myself out. I could use some good friends to be around, they are, just not physically. I just am so afraid of it happening again, or something worse happening. Logic tells me that no worry in the world is going to help/or be good for me with this. I just need to continue being "the mean 'B' I have been in recent weeks, but that is WAY out of my comfort zone. Anyone who knows me even kind of knows that!!
One thing I am comfortable with is my new job of working in the school. Today was the first day for the preschool kiddos to be in class. It was a very fun day with much activity. Some kiddos were crying, others were just wondering "when do we get to play"? Several of the kiddos I had had contact with last year and it was fun seeing them again. Of course, this year they are "big" kids....lol! All in all it was a fun day with lots of fun memories in store I'm sure.

Answers To Some Prayers

Some things have been going better. I have started my new job at school and LOVE being back there!! It's going to be a fun year I think.....or I'm planning for it to be. There are going to be new kids of course, and new experiences to be had. One new thing for me will be "teaching". That's right! Yours truely will be getting my first experience at actually teaching preschoolers in a group. Scary! I know!! I also think it will be fun. I'm thinking this will help me decide if I want to get my teaching degree or not. I've thought about it for years, but have never done it. Preston also starts school tomorrow which will be good for him. He's been doing some better since last weeks "little" incident. He's not out of the "woods" yet, and he's aware of it. I'm hoping and praying that this will give him the wake-up call he needs to get himself more on track with being responsible. Keep praying for us!
I'm not missing Alco like I thought I might. I went in the other day and it was kind of wierd, but wasn't in there too long. I miss a couple of my friends who I worked with, but don't miss much else about it. It was a good place to work and everyone was very nice, just not where my heart is as far as a job. I'm so glad my prayers were answered on that one!
My friend read my blog the other day. It was kinda neat having someone read it and knowing they were at that moment. I'm truely blessed with my friendship I have formed with him. He's a great person and I think very fondly of him.
I finally got a myspace page last night. I have NO idea what I'm doing on there or how to do anything, but I guess I'm finally on. I haven't really done much to it, just set it up last night.
One last note: My dad's b-day was officially yesterday. I don't think there was anymore partying, but I got to go over and wish him a good b-day. I had hoped Preston might come in and do the same, but didn't. It's going to take awhile, hopefully it will happen though.

Very Tired

Yesterday we had my dad's 60th b-day party. It was a really nice time. We had several friend's of my parents over for dinner and of course b-day cake. The big day really isn't til tomorrow, but last night was a time everyone could get together. It was a good night with lots of food and stories about "back when". I wish it could have been more of the party originally planned, but it was a nice time nonetheless. The night would have been much better had my son decided to come join in with the party.
It's been a stressful month or so concerning my child. About a month ago he got in a fight with another peer and is now going to have "answer" for that. Unfortunately, he has not stopped since that time. Over the last week he has put me through even more with his "oneary" or just down right "naughty" behavior. Can't really go into details but let's just say I am SO GLAD school is going to be starting and even more glad football practice started today. He has been on such a "roll" with his negative behavior in the last month that I'm about to scream!! I've finally had to try and learn how to turn into a "B" which has been way hard for me. I do think he's finally finding out I mean business though in the way I have been handling his poor choices of late. My mom keeps telling me I'm going to be one tough "momma" by the time this is over. Let's hope so! "Welcome to parenting" is all everyone can say to me!...lol! Just keep us in your prayers cause right now we need 'em.
I am still talking with my new friend who I went out with. I was stressing at first cause he wasn't talking to me. However, I think things are ok now. At least I'm praying they're ok between us. We have been talking and that has been nice. As I have said several times of late, if we just stay "only friends" that will be fine with me. I would LOVE for something more to happen, but I will be content to just be friends with this guy. He is too good a guy to try and push for anything more at this time.

Eight Random Facts

The 8 Random Things Meme
The rules:
1. Let others know who tagged you.
2. Players start with 8 random facts about themselves.
3. Those who are tagged should post these rules and their 8 random facts.
4. Players should tag 8 other people and notify them they have been tagged.
Eight Random Facts:
1. I collect things with my name spelled the correct way. Very hard to find things spelled Stacie. 2.I would rather read or listen to music then watch tv. Always been that way. Right now I have hardly had my tv on in the past 3 months.
3. I have begun to journal again. Some of it is done on here. Some of it done in private. I have always loved to write.
4. I would love to be a nurse. I think it has to do with the medical things I had going on early in life. Have wanted to be a children's nurse for a long time.
5. My favorite food has always been anything Italian.
6. I have a pretty big library of books. I love going to a bookstore and spending all day there wishing I had the money to spend.
7. I love watching stand up comedy.
8. I love going different places. I would love to travel more if I had the money to do so.