Rabbits

Nothing really new in my life since my last blog. I am still getting a divorce and I am still looking for a job! My mood has improved some from a couple weeks ago, so I think that is something to look at as a positive. Not as much crying as when everything first started. Now more anger than anything! Actually, this week has been kind of fun. Went and saw some friends the other night who I hadn't seen since this summer. That was a good time. I also have been taking care of some rabbits for a friend. I had never even been around rabbits really, but this is just kind of fun taking care of them. I don't know that I would want my own, but it's been fun taking care of them for someone else. I also have been spending time with Preston of course. He's such a joy and always keeps me entertained. He informed me the other night that our house was boring! Sorry!! I'm not sure why! Maybe he's just bored since it's spring break. Kids....gotta love 'em!

Improving

So far this week has started out better. Preston and I spent the first night back at our house Sunday night. It was as bad as I had feared which was good. Preston seems to be more relaxed with Rich gone which is pretty interesting! I haven't seen or heard from Rich since Thurs, which is probably better. At this point it would be to painful to see him, let alone try and talk to him. I truely do not understand why he decided to do what he did. I am totally hurt and angry that he could just throw everything away "so easily". I may never know why he chose to do what he did, but I am starting slowly to get on with life. Preston needs me and I want to be his mom. There are a lot of fun memories we can make together as a family and good times that we can have. I truely believe God brought Preston into my life for a reason and this may be it. Keep us in your thoughts as we continue to heal and go forward with life.

Doing Some Better

This has been the most aweful week of my life!! Not only did I loose my husband this week, I also lost my job!! Yep that's right! I actually could care less about the loss of my job right now although I do need the income. That will come though. In the meantime I am still trying to cope with being a single woman again. I have cried many tears this week and have second guessed myself a million times. I do believe I made the right decision, but it is not easy when I still love Rich. I will say it again though, I have the most awesome support system and now I will get through this. My main focus is Preston now and raising him to be a Christian man. Not someone who will take advantage of a woman and then leave her broken hearted when he sees fit. I know there are going to be struggles ahead, but I am starting to think positive about things and get a little prespective on how to go forward with my life. It's going to be a LONG, LONG time before I trust a man again!!

This week has certainly not been easy. As many of you know, Rich and I have separated. This was a very painful decision for me, but I am realizing it had to be done. I had given Rich several things I needed from him last week and by the weeks end I could tell things were not going to get any better for us. I did every thing I could to work things out, but I couldn't do it alone. In the end, I decided it was better to "cut ties" then continue to be miserable. I have been in severe pain this past week from having to tell Rich to having to face him once the decision was made. My heart is beyond broken of course, but I know that I will get through this. My friends and family are amazing and have been nothing but supportive of me. Preston has been my main focus and that is what is helping me get through. That young man amazes me and I have learned a lot about courage from him this week.

God does answer prayer

The last several days have been beyond stressful! The main thing is that there is hope, because we have been talking!! I have been praying so much the last couple days and have found that some of my prayers are being answered. Mostly that we are talking! I am also finding that somehow I am having more strength to deal with this situation then I ever thought I had. The first couple days were not easy and I never thought I would make it through, but by the grace of God I have. Of course my supportive family and friends have been a huge help and blessing! I am more hopeful today then I have been for a couple weeks. Please continue to pray!