Scream II

I could start my own "movie" version of scream here in the last week. I had a really bad sleeping night the other night. Partly due to my own fault. I forgot to refill my Trazadone the helps me sleep. So, unfortunately, the next day, I paid the dear price of feeling like CRAP! Thankfully, last night resulted in a good nights rest and I did better today! I came home this morning and normally my dog Blazer is waiting at the front door for me. Well, when I came in the door I heard a noise in my room, so of course I go in there. What do I see upon entering? My dog has somehow gotten in my laundry basket, and the top has shut on him. I'm sure I had the top shut in the first place, so he IS more talented then I thought!! I finally got him out after about dying of laughter first! Thought I was going to have to call the cute ambulance driver I was laughing so hard! As far as the email, I decided not to respond, (1) because I think it will violate part of the court papers, and (2) because it's not worth my time! I actually laughed at it the second time of reading through it, although I was also calmed down a lot by that time. Once again, I will be so glad when all of this is behind me. I hope it won't be much longer, but who knows. I've talked to a lot of people who have said they have waited a year. Yuck!! In other news, Preston got in trouble at school again. On one hand, he has done VERY well in the last several months with not getting in trouble. However, the name he called a classmate got him 4 days of ISS! So, to make his day even better, he is grounded for the rest of the week. He was pretty mad at me last night, but hey! I'm not the one doing the name calling nor did I get in trouble. Today seemed to be a better day for him, although he did comment when I picked him up at school that his day was "boring". Maybe after this, he will learn not to call people names. It's so hard at that age, but he has to learn!! His paper route is going well so far. He seems to be kind of enjoying it, although I think it's more than what he thought it was going to be. He's doing a very good job so far though! I went to apply for a couple jobs today. That was a ton o fun! Actually, either job would be pretty interesting I think. I just hope I can find something by the time summer is over. I want to stay where I'm at for the summer, so I can be able to spend time with Preston. Between my dog and my son, I can't say I'm to bored at the moment!

Can I scream?

So, I went to the doctor for a follow up appoint several weeks ago and my blood pressure was 160 over something. The last couple weeks had been much better, since they now have to check it weekly! This week it was 160 over 90. This is not good!! Today my dad checked it and it was a little better 140 over 72. Still high, but not bad. I think most of it is stress related, although I don't know "why" I would be stressed. Might it have anything to do with all that is negatively going on in my life? Of course, than my mother doesn't help much and reminds me that high blood pressure runs in our family. Gee, thanks!! Oh well, I'm refuse to kick the bucket. Got to many people to piss off at this point. Case in point, got a nast email from a "former" in-law. Not sure what to do about the email, but pretty hacked about it's contents! Just one more way responsiblity is trying to escaped!! Also, let me state for the record "SOMEONE" WAS NOT, I REPEAT, NOT KICKED OUT OF THE HOUSE!! THIS PERSON HAD SEVERAL OPTIONS AND DID NOT TAKE ANY OF THEM!!!!! Good grief, I wish I had $10 for every time I've heard that in the last month. I would be out of debt!! Stay tuned to see if I respond or not! :) I will be so glad when this is behind me. Some people just do not understand how hurtful this has all been (the just mentioned person), yet they have to twist the knife just a little more. The most irriatating thing is that, it is not even any of their concern. Oh, the joys of life. I'm learning I have bigger shoulders than I thought! Good thing!! Good thing I also have a support system who is behind me 100%!! In other news, my life has been interesting. Good, but interesting!! Now, if I could just keep the blood pressure down life would be back pretty close to "normal"...whatever that is!!

Since I have time on my hands

What an interesting life I know lead. I really kind of like it in some ways, but on the other hand I am so used to working all day every day! It's been a huge change. I did talk with a friend of mine about a job I'm interested in. She said she's going to put in a good word for me, so hopefully something will come out of that. I had a pretty exciting day yeasterday! I actaully won some money on a scratch lottery ticket. I was pretty excited, but of course it didn't last me very long since it was applied to a bill!! What fun is that? Yeasterday was also one of my friend's birthday. I knew it was coming up, but can never remember the exact day! What a bone head I feel like missing it....again! American Idol was on last night. A few years ago, I could've cared less about the show, but here recently, I'm hooked!! Simon is a crack up most of the time, although he can say some pretty rude things! The bad thing right now is that everyone in the top 4 I would like to see win. I have to say my FAVORITES though are Elliot and Chris!! Elliot is my top pick because he just seems so down to earth and what a cutie!! However, Chris is a really hottie!! I do like Elliot the best though, so I hope he wins it all!! Of course, I can't wait til next week to see who sings what.

Why??

Why will Rich never understand all the hurt he has caused me? I know "why", but I don't know why! Really bites having to deal with all the emotions and hearing him say it's all in the "past" for him. It's far from that way for me! I wrote a 4 1/2 page letter "to" him today. Probably will never mail it, but at least it got a lot of my frustrations out! It made me feel better to "tell" him about all the pain he has caused and how my life will never be the same because of it! Actually, the last couple weeks have been pretty good aside from Rich not having a clue about what it is he has actually done. I've done a lot of reading and working at my job part-time. Still wish I could find something more full time, but that will come when the time is right. I also have been trying to stay involved with friends and going places. My life seems actually kind of nice at the moment. Wired to say that in so much crap that has happened in the past month. It is nice to have a couple weeks, though to just kind of be myself again. Maybe the drugs are working...hehe!! There's really a lot to look forward to this month: Stephanie will finally be as old as me (lol), one of cousins will celebrate a birthday, my son will become a teenager (god help me!), and I will get to see a bunch of family at the end of the month when I go for a family reunion weekend. I am really starting to look forward to that. I think it does help to not have to worry if my significant other would be going or not. And, if he's not, worrying about what he's doing while I'm gone. Thank god I don't have to deal with that any longer!! In the meantime, I'm just waiting for my next prince charming to find me! I'm not ready for him to come at the moment, but I know he's gotta be out there somewhere. If not, it's always fun to "window shop"!