Hot Summer Days

Not having a working computer at the moment really bites!! I've been trying to not be in the sun to much since I'm not supposed to be anyway. I had wanted to put my pool up this summer, but looks like that's not going to happen now. My back is better, which is good, cause Preston broke two bones in his foot a couple weeks ago! He did it while at the pool. Jumped in and I guess hit the side of the cement wall. He's doing pretty well overall. He's in a "boot" so at least he can take it off to shower and sleep. He's NOT happy about not being able to go swimming or do all the other things 13 yr old boys do! In other news, I'm still looking for a job. Been on a few (I thought) promising interviews, only to find I didn't get the jobs. I think I'm finally taking my mom's advice and just enjoying my time with Preston this summer. I've been trying to think of things to do with him, but it's hard with little money. I'm so blessed he's such a good kid though and just "goes with the flow". I'm going to try and take he and a couple friends to Wichita when he can not be in his boot. He had wanted to go over for his birthday, but we didn't get the chance to. Other than that, I guess I can't complain to much. Nothing much has been going on, but I'm not being stressed like I was. Still on the blood pressure meds the doctor put me on. Don't know how long that journey is going to be. Preston and I did go see the movie "Cars" the other night. It was really pretty cute!

Mending

The family is all gone by now. My aunt and cousins from Arizona left Monday to go back home. It was SO nice having them around!! I really enjoy when they come, but it's always hard when they leave because I only see them about once a year. Fortunately, now I have my aunt's email address, so I can keep in touch with her. I also have my cousin's and send her stuff frequently. My back is finally doing better!! I've been taking the muscle relaxers the Dr. gave me, and it has helped BIG time!! It took a good couple days for them to kick in, but when they finally did I noticed a dramatic difference. I'm still having some pain at times, but nothing like I was during the reunion. My sleep time has increased because of the drowsiness effect, but that's fine. It's not like I have any where to go anyway!! I had a job interview today and unfortunately did not get the job. I was REALLY bummed and ended up having a crying afternoon. In part, I know because I found some old letters and cards Rich had given me. Need I say more?? Anyway, I'm still waiting to hear on another job I interviewed for. I don't think I got it, since it's been a week, and I haven't heard anything. I guess I don't know anything for sure though. I know I do have to keep looking. I'm wanting to get my pool up this weekend hopefully, so maybe I can do that and get some swimming done before it gets to the end of the summer. That would be nice anyway. We finally got our computer fixed. It really is nice to have a brother-in-law in the family who knows a "thing or two" about computers!

Fun Times

Yeasterday was a completely bad day!! I've been having nightmares for the last several nights and am not sure why. I'm going to the doctor in the morning, so I will probably ask them. It may just be part of the "healing" process, but crap! this is nuts!! Actually, things have been going pretty well. Still looking for a job. I continue working VERY part-time at the gas station, and enjoy that. I also had a job interview today, so I hope that pans out. Keep your fingers crossed. Went to a family reunion over the weekend. Had a great time!! It was nice to get out of Pratt a couple days and just kick back and relax. Actually, I really did anything, but relax. The day after we got there, I could barely move. My back had stiffened up so bad all I could do for most of the time was sleep and sometimes sit. Another reason why I'm going to the doctor in the morning. I can finally walk like I normally do, but I'm still having some pain. It was really nice to see family though. This part of my family I don't see but maybe once a year, so being able to be in a big group for a few days was fun. Preston got to meet several cousins and seemed to have a good time. I think he was a little overwhelmed, but who wouldn't be with the size of family I have. While we were gone Preston turn into a teenager. God help me!!....LOL! He seemed to have a good birthday and got to have a party while down there. As far as my bad day yeasterday, I think it was just a combination of several things happening within a span of a couple days that weren't so pleasent. I also have times where I do miss Rich even though in the end he treated me like S!! I don't know that it's him so much, as it is the companionship that I had at times with him. That I feel so frickin' hurt by him still!! I try not to think about it, but some days the feelings just creep up on me.